This morning I struggle with a big case of [need to forgive], I have already conversed with God on my issue with forgiveness this morning quite a few times, it is so hard to do with the little puke sitting there meandering near me telling me to do the worldly thing. BUT I WANT TO DO THE GODLY THING, SO LEAVE ME ALONE!
In a silly analogy I shared with God after one of my prayer sessions this morning, I told him, “I feel like a bank teller, I know all the information and I see all the big money come past me, in and out, all day long. I hold the best information, but I am still only paid minimum wage and I cannot share the intell with anybody but my Boss.” It is just not fair, but who told us life would be fair? Surely, it wasn’t the guy who said “in this life you will have trouble.”
I will not allow my joy to be taken away today, I know I am doing my best as a supportive wife and stepmom. I will continue to pray for the ability to forgive today, it is very important, we are to be friends to our enemies and that is only complete with forgiveness. If you get a moment to pray for me today, it would be greatly appreciated and you let me know what I can pray for you!